Samantha's Blog (13)

you were my baby

i held your life in my hands...

you were my baby...

i loved you from the first moment i saw you...

curled up on the street.

pink and hairy...

you were my baby...

i knew you were mine...

but it couldnt last for long...

you were too little...

to weak...

to hang on.

now your in a heaven far away from here...

you were my baby...

now your gone.

Added by samantha on May 25, 2011 at 4:35pm — 1 Comment

strangers i live with.

why dont you ever listen?

i can scream at the top of my lungs...

and yet you dnt ever spare a glance at me...

am i nothing but a person you created?

you, who are supposed to love me...

repect me...

care for me...

and be there for me...

are not!

i live with absolute strangers...

and yet you do not care.

people com around...

and all of a sudden im YOUR daughter!

you are wrong!

you are always…

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Added by samantha on May 19, 2011 at 3:22pm — No Comments

let me die

cry...

cry until my tears drown me in my sorrow...

drag me under...

to the pit of me hell....

never let me breathe again...

let me be swallowed by my fear...

let me die...

with NO help....

let me die...

alone....

alone in my darkness...

let me die...

oh please let me die....

let...

me...

die.................................

Added by samantha on May 17, 2011 at 9:16am — 2 Comments

My Sarah

my tears fall on her pasty skin...

she did it...

i never thought she would leave me...

die...

all because of a boy...

why did she pull that tigger...

why didnt i stop her....

was did i stare...

i was frozen.

i wanted to hold her forever....

she was mine...

my love, my life...

and now she is dead...

all because i couldnt get here when she asked...

its my fault...

my sarah…

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Added by samantha on May 12, 2011 at 3:11pm — No Comments

good bye

if u look u can find me...

in that dark room...

all curled in a ball...

clutching my body ...

as a new pain has arised...

it wont go away...

it never will...

my fucked up life...

made an even bigger spill...

 

as i lay there....

all covered in blood...

i fall asleep...

and dream a dream...

to say goodbye.

Added by samantha on May 12, 2011 at 2:37pm — No Comments

touched

night...

dark...

cold...

rain...

those hands...

sliding up my thigh...

is this happening...

i trusted him.

hands...

all over my body...

why me...

hands...

rubbing me...

touchin me...

defiling me...

why?

is it my fault...

why wont u stop...

pain...

inside of me...

let me go!...

i do not want this pain...

left alone...

in the…

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Added by samantha on May 12, 2011 at 2:32pm — No Comments

why are people so cruel????

why are people so cruel...

i do nothin...

and yet they bring me down...

down down down...

until i have reached my lowest point...

down... until i can not think of anything else but...

death...

why?

?

why cant i just have some peace in MY life...

let me live my own...

let me be free...

let me be myself...!

Added by samantha on May 12, 2011 at 12:48pm — No Comments

why does it have to hurt?

why does it hurt so much...

just when you look at me...

the way you look at me...

gives me such chills...

why must i love you....

i know it will never be...

and yet...

i fall for you with just that smile...

those eyes...

why me...

must i be stung along...

with this pain...

that scoops my hearts out with a spoon...

why can t i just let you go...

why.....?

Added by samantha on May 11, 2011 at 3:24pm — 1 Comment

turning into nothing

pieces are falling from my hearts as if it were nothing...

slowly and painfully im wither into nothing...

until i am nothing...

but a memory...

and soon not even that...

i will be lost...

like so many...

others...

can i be loved if i am to turn into nothing...?

can i...

 

Added by samantha on May 6, 2011 at 2:42pm — No Comments

find me...

love...

is it for me...or not...

do i diserve to be loved...

can that lover find me...

in my dark depression...

that of which i have always know...

forever...

can u find me...

my invisible lover....

can u....

find...

me?

Added by samantha on May 6, 2011 at 2:32pm — No Comments

love & lust

love...

is it real...

or is it a joke someone made up long ago....

to fool with people...

so they could watch as people stumble...

in their own minds...

in their hearts...

lust...

is nothing...

if it means nothing to you...

both love and lust...

watse of emotion ...

if ur goin to fall back down into your sad depression.

Added by samantha on May 2, 2011 at 9:22am — 1 Comment

stollen

night

dark

cold....

i am lost...

stollen away from my happiness....

my childhood...

my life is gone

foever in the darkest and deepest part of my mind.

what do i do?

run?

hide?

i dont know any more...

my depression is consuming me...

swalloing me hole...

i am broken...

because i was stollen.

Added by samantha on April 29, 2011 at 3:08pm — 1 Comment

lost

dont know what to do anymore...

school...

friends...

...family...

falling apart...ripped at the seems  of my life...

Added by samantha on April 8, 2011 at 9:23am — 2 Comments

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